Say the damntruth.

Sunday, August 22, 2010,

THIS BLOG IS CLOSED!

As i have no time to blog, and my lazy nature is getting worse, my memory getting more and more like an old grandma, i have decided to close this blog. All links will be removed. :)

Sorry, and thank you! :)

9:25 AM

Thursday, April 08, 2010,

I tried so hard to hold on.
But i had no idea that the longer i held on, the more pain i felt.
I didn't dare to, and didn't want to let go.
I felt insecure.
I felt... sadness.
It was totally unpredicted. I didn't expect it that way at all.
But it came. Came unexpectedly.
I wanted so much, so badly to leave in my own world.
But i couldn't. I know.
I wish i could live in my own dream, where i can protect myself.
But i couldn't. I know.
I wanted so badly, really badly, to stay in the past.
But i couldn't. I know.
It is perhaps time for me to stop thinking about the past. Wishing it would come back.
It wouldn't. Not at all...

10:43 AM

Monday, April 05, 2010,

I cannot understand.

Why on earth am i friends with you?

I cannot stand you. I found that out recently. Today. :)

You change people. Change them lots.

You take them away from me.

You don't really stay close to me. But yet, i am your good friend.

Or at least that was what i thought. Or was it again my illusion?

You didn't bother about my feelings. Or maybe you didn't even bother about me.

You said that you didn't like the feeling of being neglected, but you are doing that to me?!

HAHA. How funny. Really funny.

And you insist your way. All the way. Persuade till they agree.

It feels horrible. To see that happenning...

9:28 AM

Thursday, March 25, 2010,

FIRST POST OF 2010! :)

I remembered the old you.

The one that i wasn't close to, but yet still happy to see.

But now, you have changed. Perhaps you didn't.

But that was how i saw.

You changed to those people that i dislike.

No no. I don't think i can say that.

I should just say - "affected" eh? (How funny. I am still finding excuses for a stranger up till now.)

I hate you.

For changing. For making things worse than before.

I wouldn't even bother about other people.

But you? YOU? That started that thing.

How ironic. I wish you would know.

But i didn't even talk to you. You probably didn't know about me either.

I probably should stop noticing you.

It isn't anger, or... It was a hint of sadness.

A sadness towards your change. And you don't even drop by anymore...

8:39 AM

Monday, June 01, 2009,

ALL IN MY LINK LIST THAT CHANGED YOUR URL.

Please kindly leave a tag, or msn/email me your new url, or else i am just going to take from other people's blog.

Thanks for reading my blog. :)

3:30 AM

Monday, January 05, 2009,

Mingen or Micen? (Micen = Michael, QiaoEn)
I accept micen as the official one. But then i don't know what to see mingen as.
Which good friend of the opposite gender will share a 'lao po bing' when you have it?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will eat it one mouth then you eat one mouth?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will snatch each other tibits at 3am? (That is actually rather normal...)
Which good friend of the opposite gender will ask for the warmth of the other one?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will you actually be comfortable to be able to talk with?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will your boyfriend actually not be jealous of; even when the both of you are so close?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will you actually show your heart to, in spite of others talking about the both of you?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will actually drive you around and to places happily?
Which good friend of the opposite gender will actually seem closer to you than your boyfriend?

Michael is the one that has been quiet, and the offical Qiao En's boyfriend. Ming Dao, most probably the most famous, and longest QiaoEn rumored boyfriend.
I had long accepted micen as the official one. Ask me Mingen relation and i will tell you good friends, more than that? Maybe family. But there wasn't anything more, wasn't it?
That was until i saw a person's blog post about Shou Zhe. Maybe, i need to be more calm... Calm seems to be the keyword this year.
我今年要走淡定路线~~

12:38 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008,

TASMANIA!
I thought it was time for a new post...