Thursday, April 08, 2010,
I tried so hard to hold on.
But i had no idea that the longer i held on, the more pain i felt.
I didn't dare to, and didn't want to let go.
I felt insecure.
I felt... sadness.
It was totally unpredicted. I didn't expect it that way at all.
But it came. Came unexpectedly.
I wanted so much, so badly to leave in my own world.
But i couldn't. I know.
I wish i could live in my own dream, where i can protect myself.
But i couldn't. I know.
I wanted so badly, really badly, to stay in the past.
But i couldn't. I know.
It is perhaps time for me to stop thinking about the past. Wishing it would come back.
It wouldn't. Not at all...
10:43 AM
Monday, April 05, 2010,
I cannot understand.
Why on earth am i friends with you?
I cannot stand you. I found that out recently. Today. :)
You change people. Change them lots.
You take them away from me.
You don't really stay close to me. But yet, i am your good friend.
Or at least that was what i thought. Or was it again my illusion?
You didn't bother about my feelings. Or maybe you didn't even bother about me.
You said that you didn't like the feeling of being neglected, but you are doing that to me?!
HAHA. How funny. Really funny.
And you insist your way. All the way. Persuade till they agree.
It feels horrible. To see that happenning...
9:28 AM
